Delinquency…

While leaving the school today,
He just screamed out, that he loved me.
I joked around.
I told him, that I already knew and laughed again.
I laughed and we moved together,
for some time and then walked
our way to our houses.
He told me to come to his terrace once I’m done,
with my homework and so I did.
At around 6:00 pm, as soon as I finished up with my homework I climbed up his terrace.
To my amusement he was not there
and only a letter was there on the terrace bench.
I hurriedly picked it up.
As I read:-
Hello,
I know you loved me from the day we met.
You always paid me your most attention.
I know I’m being selfish.
Don’t try to stop me or run to save me.
I love you so much.
You were the best thing that ever happened to me.
You gave me a reason to live.
I didn’t want you to get into me with my sadness and hence
I didn’t tell you about it, but I guess I finally did.
If you ever loved me just don’t do what I’m going to.
No, I’m not abandoning you.
I am not capable enough to live with you. You are a princess.
I cannot afford to abandon you.
Okay,
Be happy.
Now just look at me and smile once.
Up here , at the ledge.
Don’t cry just one last smile for me.
Just once look into my eyes and bid me a final farewell.
Your best friend,
Goodbye.

As I finished it off I looked at the ledge and found him standing there staring at me with his teary eyes.
As I smiled and ran towards him, I guess it was too late.
He had already jumped.
What am I now here for?

He is gone.
As the wind blew through me,
I felt my hands stained with blood
For I could not save him despite being informed.
There was a mix of emotions running through me and a nervousness.
I am the culprit and I very well accept it.
My hands stained with blood.
I am a culprit.
And I’ll live with it.