My teenage wasn’t the way I thought it to be,
Neither the way I dreamt of,
Nor the way others had their’s.
Frequent mood swings,
Endless crying, repenting, struggling,
This was my teenage.
I realized something about my identity.
A truth only I realized, yet.
I was a gay.
Different from every other girl in the class,
It was only me knowing about it.
I didn’t tell any of my friends about it .
They treated me as usual.
As this was what I wanted.
Slowly my identity as a gay spread like an epidemic.
From one person to another to the third and eventually everyone.
I was ruined.
I felt like a baseless chalice.
I couldn’t even hold my emotions.
Frequent crying, heavy minded I lived through my teen life.
It was horrible.
Everyone made it worst.
A separate empty bench used to be left out in the classroom for me ,
Unlike when they used to fight amongst themselves to sit with me.
It was obviously way too hurting.
Wouldn’t it be?
I felt like giving up.
Struggling seemed way too hard.
My teen life didn’t bring any cheers as it did bring in the life of my other classmates.
I was isolated.
Harassment and insomniac nights made their way to my life
I wanted to share my emotions for these compressed emotions were now rotting my soul.
I felt lost.
I was a forlorn figure now, waiting for an angel to take me to the heaven.
Why only me?
Playing computer games for three fourth of my day,
And the left one, let it be crying.
Such was my changed routine .
No friends, no contacts,
Only a girl elder to me by 3 years.
She was the only one to accompany me through my life(what I actually thought).
But I was eventually left alone.
I was fragile throughout this phase.
And,
I felt a need to wake up,
To maintain my identity bold, even though as a gay.
I was proud of myself.
Depressing cries were no more a part of my schedule.
Yes I am a teen,
And a gay.
But how does that even matter.
I look like any other girl,
And I have a brain as much as you have.
Maybe slightly more?
How even does my sexuality bother you?
Rather anyone?
That’s till where you’ve limited your thinking, perhaps?
Come on dude,
Recognise the calibre.
This world is colossal and short minded aren’t long lived.
So this is a poem about a girl. In India gay and lesbo marriages were declared legal this year and this is a step forward from what we were, I suppose. I feel that every human is different and should be respected in every aspect. Hope you like this poetry. #raise_your_voice_for_equal_human_rights.
You had me in the first line Shreya!❤️ You are one strong girl, standing against so many. Super proud of you!❤️
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Oh haha…well thank you so much.😂 But whom am I standing against?😂
Well your teen life must be more happier then.😊😊
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There are many I know and only I know😬
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How come only you know the people, I am standing against? And only you means not even me?😂😂😂
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No. I hope you don’t invite trouble the way I did. I talked of LGBTQ community once. People mostly religious spammed my mail box with mails cursing me😂😂
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Hahaa…..that why I have deleted my contact page. Whenever I used to write about gloomy days my inbox used to be filled with mails consoling me.😂😂😂
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High five. I deleted the contact page too😂😂
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😂😂
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Very bold and brave writing Shreya. You are really great
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Thank you so much. I hope it did change the mindset of atleast one of my readers.😊😊
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You are too good Shreya
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Only as much as you precieve me to be.,😂
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Yes Shreya, you’re way too smart with great wisdom beyond age.
The reason I withdrew the mentoring plan. You are good and too smart for me.
It’s really very good
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Haha….once again thank you.😊😊
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You are welcome my most bright young friend
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Great stand on this taboo subject. I love your poem. 😊❤️
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Thank you so very, Winnie. Glad you like it.😊😊
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You’re welcome, Shreya! 😊
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Indeed a bold post Shreya….Way to go girl..
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Hahaa….thank you so very Anna. It was after a long time that I wrote a fictional post after a lot of diaries.😂😂
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And what a fantastic post it is..bold yet strong in view keep writing dear ..
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Aww….glad dearest, Anna.😂
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Be.cheerful as this forever Shreya…..
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😘😘😘😘
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Tears for how beautiful this is! So glad you made it through such a trying youth time. Love!
❤️🦋🌀
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Thank you so much, Sheila. Glad you like it.😉😋
Hugs your way.
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I’m sure we are headed towards a better future! 🙂
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If only people change the way they observe things.😋😋
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Some day! 🙂
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Life is too short to worry about petty prejudices!
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Actually! I really like it. I will post it on my blog by your name.😋😋
For sure.😁
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Bold and brave Shreya! Very strong a piece and I support it fully!!❤🌈
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Glad you like it it, Sann.😊😉
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Proud of you💕💕standing against so many👍
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Indeed, we need to support them. Glad you like it.😊
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thank you for this so much!! you’re so strong and that’s amazing for figuring out who you are. i’m so proud !
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I am glad but this poem was a work of fiction.😊😉😊😉
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What a beautiful, powerful poem. 🙂
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Thank you so much.😊
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You’re welcome!!!
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What a powerful post. You really stand out the crowd. Your sexuality can be anything. It doesn’t matter. The matter is you can be a great writer. That’s what matters.
Also I have to ask you something.
Are you from India?
I am from your neighbour Country Bangladesh. Can you please checkout my blog also. It would really help me.
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Thank you, Talha. Glad you like it.😊
Also this poem is not about me.😂 I guess you got confused😂
Aah yes, I’m from India.
Will be sure to check.😊
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Oh sorry😂. Glad yoy checked.
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Beautiful and bold. Super writing x love from the Uk
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Thank you, Sunny. Glad you liked it.😉
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You’re a very powerful, passionate writer. I love this.
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I’m glad you like it, Kayla. Thank you so much.😘
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